safely home

i did it. i'm safely home. the LGBTQ students were great. three students came and we had an intimate chat. i think i talked too much...i wish i'd let them talk more. but it was so worthwhile.

i couldn't help it. i went dancing for an hour after i got back to the city, at splash. i was restless and i had to dance the energy off. besides there was some weird delay, we had to take a detour to the train station, luckily we left early so we had some buffer and i was fine...a lightening storm where the flashes went horizontal, tree-like across the sky. we saw around 20 flashes. a torrential downpour of rain and a rabid dog that had been hit, white, with red blood dripping from his wounds...it was a night like the opening of the scottish play.

and then this woman who abused her children for the 3 hour ride...the boy was in tears, saying "mommy, you don't love me." it broke my heart. i had to put on annie lennox to drown the horror of it. i wanted to tell her to stop, but i could just imagine the tirade that would come from her. she was angry at her ex-husband and having to bring the kids to see him for visitation and she was taking it out on the boy, christian, so viciously...he had no idea, and you could see it in him, why she was acting the way she was, and yet he clung to her, for she is his life.

ugh.

the creation of another damaged child who will mistake abuse for love.

but yeah, the train signals were blown out so we suffered this woman and the train going at 5 miles an hour, for safety's sake.

the dancing was fun and i finally got it. gay men in ghettoes. not so much. we were meant to also live with others, and our self-segregation, though cute...who doesn't love chelsea, can also be stifling, for then we forget how wonderful we are and regress to a teenage preening that's unbecoming. but it was fun to let loose.

now to bed, tomorrow i must finish a paper.